January 2009
3 posts
tabula rasa
goodbye,
silvae
when tv came in black and white but all anyone...
it was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of a nation. yes we can. it was whispered by slaves and abolitionists as they blazed a trail toward freedom. yes we can . it was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores and pioneers who pushed westward against an unforgiving wilderness. yes we can. it was the call of workers who organized; women who...
my heart ticks in beat with these kids i grew up...
happy anniversary lovebirds (: you two are the most diabetic people i have ever encountered. really.
be brave, young lovers, and follow your star be brave and faithful and true cling very close to each other tonight i’ve been in love like you -the king and i
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you never gave me a chance to explain and i’m not waiting anymore for your go ahead to...
December 2008
13 posts
hello young lovers whoever you are
i know how it feels to have wings on your heels and to fly down the street in a trance
as a fervent subscriber of the everything-happens-for-a-reason shebang and the more acceptable one that there’s a plan for each and every one of us, i can only blame myself for believing in at/before first sight. i can also only fault myself on growing to believe that while working at something you want...
four calling birds, three french hens, two...
and the grinch, with his grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? it came without ribbons. it came without tags. it came without packages, boxes or bags. and he puzzled and puzzled ‘till his puzzler was sore. then the grinch thought of something he hadn’t before. what if Christmas, he thought, doesn’t come from a store? what if...
but if you really hold me tight, all the way home...
mary did you know that your baby boy would some day walk on water? mary did you know that your baby boy would save our sons and daughters? did you know that your baby boy has come to make you new? this child that you’ve delivered, will soon deliver you. mary did you know that your baby boy would give sight to a blind man? mary did you know that your baby boy would calm a storm with his hand?...
feeling all superhuman, you did this to me
she would suffer, she would fight, and compromise she’s been wishing on the stars that shine so bright for answers to questions that will haunt her tonight she must rinse this all away -vanessa carlton
you've been starring in my dreams
waaaah i miss you all ): come back now…
thankyou all the rest of you (: the past few days have been awesome
bella: look, you gotta give me some answers. edward: yes. no. to get to the other side. 1.77245… bella: i don’t need the square root of pi. edward: you knew that?
norah: there’s this part of judaism that i like. tikun olam. it said that the world is broken into...
cross my heart i wear no disguise
thankyou for understanding
and thankyou natt for being all sorts of wonderful and for the quote (:
if you love somebody, set them free. if they return, they were always yours. if they don’t, they never were.
oh if you're gonna love me, love the life i lead
i’m sentimental so i walk in the rain i’ve got some habits even i can’t explain could start for the corner, turn up in spain but why try to change me now? -sinatra
drink down that gin and kerosene and come spit on...
i think it’s amazing how words written years ago can strike a chord in you nearly a century later. timeless fashion? timelessness is manifested in words. it can make you swoon, it can make you sigh or blubber like a fish.
dear rainer maria rilke, if you can see this from way up there, i think you are a genius (even if you have a feminine second name but hey who am i to say anything)
...
and prada dresses never broken my heart before
just figures after i bring back my roccobarocco the flagship store opens here. xian also believes i have been overspending… eheh
hello pei! do you want to pack me in your luggage before you leave? :D
and you boy! don’t goooo ): later the sheep eat you how?
like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
honestly this really is screwing up my head. add just a pinch of the jetlag and wham there’s the recipe for disaster. the confuzzling thing is i don’t know if i’m happy or not. hyea?
maybe i’m not as prepared as i thought i was. this sucks…
so let’s do this mindless thing lexa suggested. put your itunes on shuffle, ask yourself the question and press...
isn't it nice to know that we're golden?
thanks pei for letting me listen to the john mayer song way back and for being all sorts of wonderful (: and jim! phonecall tonight boy haha
you know it’s nothing new bad news never had good timing but then your circle of friends will defend the silver lining
you guys don’t just defend my silver lining (: you are my silver lining
when the stair has lost it’s lustre and the...
like everything i'll never find again at the...
maybe it’s human to want to disassemble everything to understand every inch of how things work or fall apart. perhaps what’s frightening is how some things weren’t meant to be answered and probably never will be. it’s downright terrifying is what it is. it throws a shroud over you late at night when you’re tossing and turning in bed. it chills you to the bone so you...
if home is where the heart is
ciao (: italy was awesome. the history and art and food and shopping and all four rolled into one is truly an amazing combination.
did most of my christmas shopping :D see jim this is more reason to take a day off from your mill and one camps this holiday before you leave! laksa please i’m craving copious amounts of laksa! being unable to survive two weeks without local food just proves...
November 2008
7 posts
volare, cantare
realise i’ll prolly be too busy packing/running around the next few days. the whole idea thrills me and yet i don’t wanna go? such a nostalgic feeling.
can’t wait to see the sistine chapel and the trevi fountain!
PEI! get well soon dear! hangout at mt.emily when i get back okay?! wheee
JIM! make time to hang and have icecream (we haven’t had an icecream/laksa sesh in...
you know you got the brand of kisses that i'd die...
so take and breathe me in like the wisp of smoke from secondhand sin
to hold fast to cotton lining and follow your heart beat time when i sing
like it’s been more than just this long (:
obama hahaha
you say go slow, i fall behind
after all this while you should not and cannot still be able to influence my decisions in such a way. but at this unearthly hour time bends and stretches and the hands on my alarm clock blur to make it all seem like just yesterday.
really. ewfjasldmnrawr. whatthehey. awayaway.
how did we get here when i used to know you so well but how did we get here well, i think i know
so comfortable and so broken in
dance like nobody’s watching; love like you’ve never been hurt. sing like nobody’s listening; live like it’s heaven on earth -twain
thought of stuff two very surprisingly mature friends said and i’m thinking it’s true. it should take time to say. so yeah let’s get this right (:
the past week has been awesome. you all are amazing (:
advent is coming (:...
i heard you say it's enlightening to think of the...
shame on you if you fool me once shame on me if you fool me twice
maybe three years ago i would have bought that. please try to understand how much has changed. and you’ve been away so long. please don’t make me have to push you away again.
so here we go let’s show them how to live accept the pain always forgive watch the sun go down learn the sound of following
all...
when the moon is in the seventh house and jupiter...
sometimes it’s all about timing, kinda about fate and a lot about luck. who knows i’m just looking forward to this week (:
hello shoppingbummambojambotanningbarbequeswimbumshoppingdxo (:
maraschino sun dips into liquid sky today dancers and romancers lick knots of its rays
lipstick rouge stains the crystal pavement sour tears from cirrus silent, perched, expectant
as sunrise fills...
hey miss sobriety do you remember me?
okay this is a very weird feeling. possibly even the first time this has ever happened. wanting something so much and yet knowing you have to hold back because certain things have to start/end. right now isn’t the right time and for once i understand because yes things have to be said. i don’t know whether to be shocked or chuffed.
whatev. driftwood complex. if anything happens then...
October 2008
11 posts
one dance left, this world is gonna pull through
just saw the news on tv. earthquake in pakistan. sigh
you’re right edmund (: you all are awesome
typed out a whole lot and deleted it all thrice
bottom line?
8448.06 miles/ 13595.47 kilometres
three years
ninety miles outside chicago, i can't stop driving
let’s pick up steam.
no more msn.
hello you! this is a reminder to cheer up (: and sleep early!
hello you! i’m so proud of you (:
hello you! you’re amazing (:
hello you. there’s nothing else to say is there? hellogoodbye? like way back when? i mean what do you say when wounds were left raw and open to heal by themselves? now it’s been years, deep bruises have...
and all the things that you neverever told me and...
no sense in anyone else being let in the know and since you came back anyway it’s my turn to try to go
ready, set go
like a lavender sweater when i'm caught in bad...
so it looms. and warily we approach the double doors with hopeful trepidation and snap open pandora’s box. as if it’s been waiting like a hitman in the shadows the cold rushes out and strikes you in the face, drying your overworn eyes and chilling you to the bone. so in silence we tread to our stands (personalised with R6T2 to make you feel more at home, but more so the baliffs...
when they get the chance (say what?)
two posts in under two hours is a little over-excessive (even for me) but yes i just goodnighted the weirdest convo ever so let’s just take preventive measures shall we? like birth control in the anti-knockedup kinda way
if you think i’m referring to you anywhere in this tumblr please ask instead of assuming (no need for cliche here) or shall we play cops and robbers? clue 1: the way...
said yeahyeah pardon me haven't we met?
and i know that’s just how it happened when romeo met juliet somewhere i’ve read that old romeo said “yeah pardon me haven’t we met?”
thankyou (: btw (you know just btw haha)
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer do you know you’re unlike any other?
this is a blackmarket reformation keep your lips closed (:
the judges will decide, the likes of me abide,...
i don’t wanna talk about the things we’ve gone through though it’s hurting me now its history i’ve played all my cards and thats what you’ve done too nothing more to say no more ace to play
funny how when something/one’s lost it’s hard to talk about what you did when the presence was still there. not because of pain or whatnot but simply because we become...
lots of people talk and few of them know
well… now i don’t know. maybe pei and yuanhao (thank you guys for an awesome last night) are right. maybe this/you aren’t worth it (for all the obvious reasons)… getting upset over… for all the obvious reasons.
all the bleedingly obvious reasons i can’t seem to knock into my head no matter how hard i try
i’ve ordered some sunshine with showers to share...
so get backbackback to where we lasted
when your mind is a mess, so is mine i can’t sleep cause it hurts when i think my thoughts aren’t at peace with the plans that we make, chances we take they’re not yours and not mine there’s waves that can break all the words that we say aren’t the words that we mean words can fall short, can’t see the unseen cause the world is awake for somebody’s sake...
tenpointoh on the richter scale, shake it like an...
danced for the first time in 919846203698320512645 years. jazz and hiphop after ib’s. comeoncomeoncomeon
over the past few days i was reminded about something. and i realise everything happens for a reason, sometimes one unknown but one anyhoo
hello my most wonderful friend (: i hope you read this. you’re one of the most amazing, spirited people i know and that’s why everyone...
first we run and then we laugh till we cry
i think it’s funny (in a sad sorta way) how nothing ever works out exactly according to plan and yet everything can turn out alright in the end. like how plans for a bright day with only white puffy cumulus as shade and the sun kissing your skin and the sea breeze in your hair can be thwarted by rain. and yet it subsides in time to have enough fun to fill the aquaphile in one satiably.
i...
September 2008
8 posts
maybe baby you're playing hide and go seek
the past few days have been awesome (:
threadless came, rongxin’s necklaces came (hey everyone go support her! they’re absolutely gorgeous!) now there’s just my locksley album whooo
caught mammamia (thanks zhexian) and stuffed my face silly with mudcake and tiramisu at hogsbreath (thanks pei!) and did lotsa shopping (thanks pei and flai)
ice cream with xian at udders and then...
what if it's lost behind words we could never find
i wish this wasn’t so confusing. even more confusing is how predictable this puzzlement seems and how time slows like a water droplet trying to reach the cold hard sink from the tap.
there was no thief. and what’s yours always will be. curious though have you ever thought that perhaps all of this was an attempt to get you to fight?
what about today?
maybe the timing's beating our hearts
had my fuelling sesh last night with flai, kevin and sankaran. deekoh popped by for awhile. hippie drink (:
my threadless is here (thanks flai) and so is my warwick uni prospectus (hey one can dream right)
and rongxin just mailed to say my necklaces are on the way too (: wheeeee who says you have to get out of the house for retail therapy? thankyou!
fireac was the right way to start i think....
to tell you nothing you don't want to hear
p.s. i love you’s an awesome flick. physics is rather great too (: i would really like a 6. pleasepleaseplease…
after this week i’m feeling really thankful for God and everyone (:
but i can’t help but envy those who really live their lives completely and wholeheartedly for Him alone. it takes a lot and i don’t know if i have it yet… my impermanence still...
try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
dreaming is unhealthy. it happens when we’re in semi-deep sleep so if you dream it means you haven’t had enough rest.
but since it occurs in your subconscious, i’m thinking that’s probably when you’re most honest with yourself and everything that happens in the dream.
so what if you can control your dreams? then what? guess it doesn’t count when you...
don't go talking too loud you'll cause a landslide
The Quiet World Jeffrey McDaniel in an effort to get people to look into each other’s eyes more, the government has decided to allot each person exactly one hundred and sixty-seven words, per day. when the phone rings, i put it to my ear without saying hello. in the restaurant, i point at chicken noodle soup. i am adjusting well to the new way. late at night, i call my long- distance...
been listening to people and they say love is the...
and it’s not my way to let them lead me astray, it’s only that i want to believe
just a thought. maybe its best done from afar? lonely but yet strangely unselfish. not expecting recompense, ever caring and never risking bruises both ways. the slow kind that comes when two hearts bump, holding to each other tight and doesn’t surface till they’re pulled apart. the kind of...
August 2008
15 posts
i got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
yesterday was awesome (: disappointing but awesome. never before has my mind buckled to the fatigue but oh well… thanks deekoh for pacing with me for the first part
lesson learnt: a 10km run is not like school cross country when you can not train and still get top 10. train next year please
got my hands in my pockets and my head in the clouds. that’s how i do when i think about you
...
i don't need so much time, i've made up my mind on...
let’s do this! whoo
we’re still hesitating
i saw you in the hallway. i bet that's what they...
thanks flai for dinner and ice cream (:
thanks jim for well… everything (:
there’s nothing better than writing a thankyou note to remind you of what to be thankful for
i have also not slept in my bed for seventytwo couchfilled hours
oh and HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY (: i realised something today. i’ve been blessed with amazing teachers all my life. thanks God (: after...
you sang me spanish lullabies... almost lovers...
goodbye lecontretemps. it’s high time i cut that cord.
today was good. extra physics lessons after school, town with zhexian (thank you very much for the ice cream!) and we went to join kyle, mong and nick at kino.
just a thought. when did ‘i love you’ become insufficient? when did we start to need the superfluous attachments to the already beautiful? like...
cut inside your pride
becky and kar leave this weekend and as always (as with everything else) i wish there was more. more flight schedules to choose from, more time, more you guys. but ah well at least we have the humongous durian fiesta before you guys leave (: withdrawal symptoms are inevitable.
after just slightly more than a month, it’s gonna take just as long to get used to not having becky pop by as and...
on the runway of a flight that's going one way
HUNGARY SERVES UP SOME USA! whooooo go hungary! third olympics in a row (:
biros scores thrice in first half before his hamstring dies but rips off wrap and jumps back in to join the celebration after. champion
kemeny makes an even bigger splash than his players when they don’t let him take the game ball. an even larger one later when he has to sit in the stands behind some woman blocking...
look at the stars, look how they shine for you
it’s like you’re walking on clouds (the puffy, white cumulus kind)
it’s like you’re flying through the air at a hundred kilometres per hour (no. no miles) or at the speed of light (3 x 10^8 m/s)
it’s like you’ve jumped too high to where the air gets thin and common sense thinner
it’s like nasa kidnapped you and skyrocketed you on an involuntary...
the element itself till seven years' heat
twelfth night 1.i (: goodstuffgoodstuff. thank God for o’s, gerald and mdm for the prayer and yeang, kenny, flai and alvin for the all-the-best messages. thank you!!!
tonight was awesome too (: thanks alex!
thanks for today God (:
and He will raise you up on eagles’ wings, bear you on the breath of dawn, make you to shine like the sun, and hold you in the palm of His hand.
wheee...
so no one told you life was gonna be this way
hello my wonderful friend (: this is assuming you still read my blog post-emo/add change. this is also a reminder to cheer up!
i know it’s easier said than done and well… nobody said it would be all ups and no downs right? so your heart’s gone and left you in a fix again. it sucks to hear this but it’s not the first time and it won’t be the last. the answer lies in...